If Only You Knew
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[Epistolary 1]
If only you knew how much it hurts to be your "best friend" when all I want is to be something more. I laugh with you, I listen to your stories, I cheer for you. But inside, I'm screaming for you to notice me the way I notice you. Maybe I'm selfish for wishing.
But if only you knew, you're the reason I believe in love and the reason I'm scared of it too.
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