There Goes My Ever After

God, if I am destined to be alone please take away my desire to be loved. Because I've been in and out of relationships and it all ended in a few words- how desperate am I to fall for 'that' guy?

Yes, a question I am fully aware of, but completely forgets when it gets to the part of being swooned after a few sweet texts. Getting my heart break in the end and then blames the guys I've been with because of my poor life choices. And just like what my friend always say, I'd go down in history as the world's biggest idiot.

And he's right, This may sound like some other romance stories about finding the right guy who's secretly a red flag but became a green forest in the end, stereotypical type of bullshit. But this is mine, mine's different and somehow far-fetched from what I imagined falling in-love with the right guy would look like. It was the most painful, because he didn't just broke my heart, he shattered my soul.