"What's The Meaning Of Life?" - O. Dazai X F! Reader

A boy seeking to find a reason to live and a girl seeking to find a reason to die meet. He gets what he wants, she doesn't. Yet she gets something even better.

Y/n's story begins with a tragic incident which caused her to get scarred, even if she won't admit. She states she's on a run from society and corruption at the same time. But instead of giving up, she pursues further. She doesn't like that about herself. She says she wants to rest, but can't bring herself to do so.

Since the tragedy was done by the Port Mafia, she states "I should join them". Y/n thinks that if she lives with enough guilt, she'd let herself die.

But of course her dream is ruined when she joins the Port Mafia and interacts with a certain boy...