Why am I even alive?
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Last published Sun, Oct 12, 2025
Alone, broken, depressed and standing on the ledge of the roof of his middle school. Izuku stood there staring at the concrete below. Then he jumped. Speaking something softly but clear as he fell with tears in his eyes. "I'm sorry for even existing." He closed his eyes as he lost consciousness. Unable to feel someone catch him before he hit the ground. "Why the hell would you want to do that, kid?" The figured said in a distraught, concerned voice. Dabi then called Kurogiri so he could take the boy to their base.
What will happen to Izuku now? Read on to find out
This is my first book, so I hope you enjoy it.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or art. I do take credit for the plot and story line as my own original work and ideas.
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(Note that some of these may not be used but we'll see as I go)
Gore/ blood
BoyxBoy
GirlxGirl
Smut
Suicide
Self harm
Abuse
Swearing
Rape
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