Stuck (In Search of the Non-existent)

Summary:
The last day of Summer Camp '98 was the start of Phillip Harris' calvary. Surviving a traumatic event and losing the most important person in his life in just one night caused him great torment and suffering.

Now, fourteen years have passed, and he's still stuck-stuck in search of something he couldn't grasp, a person he couldn't find, and a feeling he hadn't felt for a very long time.
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Foreword:
This is my first original novel-a story about love and tragedy, of trauma and rumination, of losing and forgiving one's self, of a hope for reunion and second chances... or a hope for a new love and acceptance of the past.

This story is set on different timelines: 1997 and 1998 as the past, while 2012 as the present while there will be an epilogue in the year I finish this story (hopefully 2016) just to give a glimpse of what happened after years of the story's conclusion. I started drafting this around 2022-2023 but back then it was all just drafts, so I really hope I can finish this soon, at least in 2026.
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Warning:
There are some derogatory words here as some part of the book was set in the 90's and my main character was bullied as a teenager. There will be character developments throughout though, I promise.

Although I put a bit of myself to some characters, most of their quirks, hobbies, perception, and personality don't reflect the author's own ones :)