When Breathing Feels Borrowed
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MatureOngoing31m
Last published Mon, Sep 15, 2025
A collection of stories no one wants to admit they've lived through if they have, loneliness, empty rooms, thoughts you can't tell anyone without ruining the mood. Dark, depressing, and painfully real. These aren't pretty tales. They're the ones that keep you awake at 3AM thinking. I write these to help express my emotions and stop myself from making decisions I might regret, and maybe, just maybe, stop someone else from making a bad choice as well.
TW: dark themes, suicidal thoughts, self-harm
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