When I Didn't Want To Live
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Lennox "Nox" Wilder is a rockstar with a reputation: rehab, relapse, chaos. But after years of wreckage, he's fighting for one last chance at sobriety with the only person who's never left his side.
Luca Gray isn't just a tattoo artist. He's Nox's anchor. His best friend. The one who saw something worth saving when Nox couldn't even look in the mirror. For five years, they've stayed orbiting each other, too close to be just friends, too afraid to fall.
But when Luca's past resurfaces in the form of a dangerously obsessive ex, Nox is forced to face the truth: he's in love with Luca, and he'll burn the world down to keep him safe.
A haunting, tender romance about second chances, survival, and the kind of love that makes you want to stay.
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