Troubled
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I had never been so.... Depressed or quiet before or at least not before this, this big mistake Ive made in my life, the mistake wasnt the drugs or all the parties it was what your mind did with all the pressure and guilt and then u just... Crack you explode and someone once told me when your mad the truth comes out and it did indeed all of it all the lies and put downs just spilled
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" Stop trying to figure me out! Stop thinking I have this past tragic tear jerking life! Can't you just get it? Can't you just get that something didn't have to go so tragically wrong and so baffling terrible for demons to arise in my head? Can't you just get that I don't have to be a puzzle to have parts of me missing?" I've always believed that everything happened for a reason. Of course sometimes it was just that we were stupid and made stupid choices. And there was also that sometimes life just decided it hadn't played enough tricks on you. But other times,it was good. I think I was like a whirlwind and he was like the ocean.
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