The life of a book nerd
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Last published Wed, Jun 3, 2015
There are so many things that could run through your head when you hear 'book nerd'. You could think of books, or fangirling all over Tumblr, or whatever it is that you to get over the previous books you read because on some level it's traumatizing in the best possible way.
This book isn't about what it's like to be a book nerd even though you will pick that up. It's about real people and real problems, and if that's not your thing then I understand.
But keep in mind that this is not a happy book. By any means. There is suicidal thoughts. So no, not happy.
Most of this book is fiction, the characters are real people with different names. So no need to freak out and call someone telling me I need help. I promise you most of it is fiction.
And May the odds be ever in your favor.
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