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Stained by Invisible Ink: A Virgin's Suicide Note

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"There has to be something more than this, all the books, the movies... They all have a purpose. There has to be more than that. I know it." 
"Maybe there isn't though. Maybe this is all there is. Maybe all the tv shows and movies and books lied to us. Maybe we're meant to spend our lives in a never ending labyrinth, seeking answers but receiving only more questions. Perhaps some stars are meant to shine less brightly than others, some trees meant to die quicker and some sunsets meant to fade. Maybe there isn't something more. Or what if this is our something more and we're so obsessed with seeing something that's far grander and exciting that we're missing what's right in front of our eyes. Maybe we're missing out on our something more already,"

There is no maybe for Estelle. She knew she was missing out on her something more, but she could never figure out what that something more is. Maybe, it's too late for Estelle now.All Rights Reserved

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Letters through the dark night by WinterLE

"Books and words are all I have left..." This world is filled with horror, fear, anger, hatred, wonder, awe, happiness, appreciation... Outside, the faces we put up, the paint we lay, thick and bright - all those cover those mud filled hole that we all hide. Sometimes, we all need a break. But how can you show it if you're afraid? If you don't want to hurt others? If you just don't want to make the world worst? This is just a story - letters - from one to herself during the darkest times, trying to bring out a glimmer of hope. During high school and the expectations of reality and the way the world works now.

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I ran downstairs in the living room to see all my brothers circling Nefeli who was looking for me desperately, in panic. Ah, I knew the scream could be heard and would make her worry too much. When we made eye contact she literally just jumped on me, almost suffocating me from how tight her hug was. I was taken aback for the first two seconds but then I hugged her back, not knowing what was happening. "Thank God you are safe!" she whispered in my ear, making me more confused than before. I looked over to my brothers who were equally unaware of what was happening, except Aiden and Alex who were motioning for me to wait. "Of course I am okay, Nefeli, what happened?" I asked worriedly. Seeing her like that makes my heart clench. I could not stand watching her in panic. "I heard Alex and Aiden talking about something in Italian and they said something about Mafia! We are being threatened by Mafia?!" she yelled in my face, tears ready to escape her chocolate brown eyes. Everyone exchanged looks and we could not help but burst into loud laughter as Nefeli was looking at us confused. "Love, we are not threatened by Mafia" Cole said after he calmed down. "We ARE the Mafia" • • • _______________________________________________________ ⚠️ DISCLAIMER ⚠️ Mentions of abuse, violence, harsh language, bad mental health, and light depression! Also, I don't own any of the photos! • • • ENGLISH IS NOT MY MOTHER LANGUAGE, I'M SORRY FOR ANY GRAMMATICAL OR VOCABULARY MISTAKES! • • • Please read 'Before You Read' in the first character chap! It's very important! • • • Started: October 4th, 2020 Finished: March 6th, 2021

Chances Of Truth ☑️ by zZohana3

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