I love you, I'm sorry

so spoilers from the last book ahead so if you haven't read it then you should go there and check it out, this is the sequel to "but I'm broken"

so colby has been living with sam for nearly six months now, they've had their ups and downs but it only made them closer, colby seems to be getting better from Sam's perspective, but really colby just pushed his trauma down again, he didn't mean to, it just happened, he was so lost in his head trying to understand the memories he didn't remember until now, and as more memories make their way to the front of his brain, and people he never thought he will see again showing up, he uncovers secrets from his past and about his parents that made his blood run cold, what is going on in his head? who are these people that showed up? and why did they show up now? how will this affect his life? And how will sam react after knowing the truth?

trigger warnings will be put before every chapter, but just a subtle warning, there will be talk about self-harm and suicide, the action of self-harm, violence, bad language, non-consentional drugging, talk of sexual assult and rape, and past trauma.