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Like a bolt of lightning, this stupid boy appeared in my life.
First day of summer break between first and second grade, he just appeared- standing on my porch like he was born there.

Straight brown hair, wide dark eyes and a fresh sunburn across his cheeks. He was already talking before I even opened the door.

I don't know how it happened but it's been ten years. And he's still here.
Talking, whether or not I'm listening.
Laughing, even if no one else is.

He's still too quick- racing around the world like he's scared he's going to miss it.

He's gotten taller...much taller. His hair is a little longer, a little wavier, but under the light it still looks the same golden brown it did when we were nine.

And now, finally, he was a high school graduate. We both were.

Like a bolt of lightning he appeared and like the sun he refused to disappear.

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I fell asleep with my chin pointed at him, the outline of his face being the last thing I saw.

How was I supposed to do this?

It had always been difficult, hiding this secret, keeping him close.

But now, my focus was starting to slip.
I couldn't see anything but his lips, his hands, his smile.
I couldn't hear anything but my name in his mouth, his jagged breaths and that loud laugh.

How am I supposed to be okay with this?

How am I supposed to focus on anything other than him?

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