um, I don't really know

I guess this kinda a suicide note that I'm writing in advance for when the day comes. I know it will eventually, there's not much left for me here. this isn't meant for now, but for when it happens. I promise I have no plans of anything right now, just wanted to write this before its too late. i promise im ok, i just wanted to get a few things off my chest and apologize. these are also kinda just drafts for when i actually need to write them, which will be no time soon, i promise.