I didn't write this book because I understood everything.
I wrote it precisely because, at some point, I stopped understanding.
Being a mother to a little girl is a journey full of tenderness, funny questions, hands that reach for you even in their sleep. Then, suddenly-or at least it seems that way-that little girl grows up. And you find yourself facing a teenager who doesn't seek you in the same way. Who looks at you as if you're from another planet. Who locks herself in her room and answers with "I don't know," "nothing," or, worse, with silence.
This book doesn't claim to teach. It's just the story of a mother who tried not to give up. Who made mistakes-often-with tone, words, and expectations-but who kept knocking.
Gently, without forcing. With love. With fear. With endless patience.
Because talking to a teenager is sometimes like trying to translate a language you don't know.
But when, even for a moment, you manage to really understand her-truly-then the whole journey, all the closed doors, all the tears, is worth it.
If you are a mother-or father-feeling lost in this new world your daughter is becoming, know that you are not alone. I've been there. And this is the story of how it went.
Not perfect. Not easy.
But true.
- Just an ordinary mother, like many, like you.
Highest ranked- #10 in action 2/16/2017
A promotion.
That's all I wanted. I didn't want to run for my life. I didn't want to be kidnapped. I didn't want to face death. I didn't want to find out my whole life was a lie.
I just wanted a bloody promotion. Guess fate had other plans?
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The cold air fanned over my face as I opened the door. The exit door lead to the back of the building so it was pitch black. I leaned against the wall trying to control myself.
Blood was running down my arm and head. My hair was stuck to my face from all the sweat and blood. Everything was spinning around me and the ground seemed like it was shaking. Groaning I sat down and put my head on my knees.
He knows who I am.
He knows how I look like.
He knows where I work so possible knows where I live.
I am not safe anymore... no where.
While I was in my own world I heard faint sounds behind me but I didn't bother to look or run away. The footsteps got closer and I was pretty sure it was Walker's men.
I should run.
I should try to fight.
But what's the point in trying to run away? He would eventually find me and if he has his way he would most likely kill me. If this is my fate then why am I trying to fight it?
I felt someone harshly grab my waist and pull me up and I complied. They dragged me down the alley and into the busy street. I heard the opening of a car and the next thing I knew I was being thrown into a car. My head hit the hard leather seat and the door shut behind me.
Maybe this is how my life will end. Maybe I should just let it happen. Maybe I was destined to die alone as a no one.
With that I let the darkness consume me.