She's all that I'm not

Years and years of affirming myself and come to a point that I already made peace about myself. I accept who I am, who I will be and make the best out of it.

But sometimes, it just backfires. I know I have my own qualities but I can't help but wonder, and ponder, and it made me drowsy into the pit of another deep insecurities.

What would it be like if I was just like her? Tall, gorgeous, smart, athletic, talented, friendly, confident, kind, loved by many.

I am mediocre, I don't stand out. I don't have something that I can be proud of. I'm always in the crowd, flocking around, as if part of a movie as a background talent that needs to look up to those main leads and gawk at them.

I wish I could at least be at par with her but no because...she's all that I'm not.