Okay, I Know I'm Problematic (But At Least I'm Good At It!)
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Alec John Belle, after finishing his Memento Vivere and Memento Mori poetry duology, told himself that he would not write another poetry book until he had the perfect concept for something to write. Just days after finishing Memento Mori and making that promise to himself, a title fell into his head - Okay, I Know I'm Problematic (But At Least I'm Good At It!). Here, Belle goes on a journey through self-discovery, talking about things he has never dared to in any of his other books. In this trauma-informed, healing-imbued, brutally-honest, and love-filled poetry book, readers will dive into the mind of Alec John Belle for the first time ever as he leans into his most authentic, conscientious, and straightforward work to date. While Belle doesn't hold back, he treats every poem with the utmost care, even with some of the darkest, most harsh, critical, sharp, and severe topics he's ever written. Reader before, not all of these poems are for the faint of heart and can potentially be triggering to those with mental health issues. Come along for the ride as Belle's grimmest, yet witty, playful, and sarcastic, poems bring about mending of hearts and renewing of broken souls.
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