Slowly Fading *Haylor*
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I'm slowly fading.....I hate my life. I lost the one thing that makes me happy and now I have to watch her be happy with someone else. I should just end it. I tease myself with the minor cuts on my wrist. I should press down harder. I should just end it. My mates are trying to help me. They bring me to therapist after therapist. Nothing helped. Nothing WILL help. The only person that could help me is her. But she's in love with someone else. I'm Hollywood's joke. The self harmer that's still in love with the girl that took my heart over three years ago. I'm miserable while she's happy as can be. I'm going to have watch her get engaged to HIM. I'm going to have to hear about her first baby with HIM. I should just end it. I want it to be over. I'm already gone. I'm slowly fading.
*DON'T READ THIS IF IT TRIGGERS ANYTHING!! PLEASE DON'T STEAL MY IDEA!! TAYLOR IS NOT ENGAGED OR HAVING A BABY WITH THE 'HIM' HARRY IS TALKING ABOUT. THAT'S JUST HARRY THINKING ABOUT WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE.*
*WARNING: THIS STORY MIGHT HAVE SOME SEXUAL SCENES. THERE WILL BE SCENES OF SELF HARM!!*
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