Paranoid - PhanFiction
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Dan Howell has terrible night terrors that don't seem to be subsiding, but when his parents send him off to college in hopes that things get better for him, things only sadly, get horribly worse.
*This fic is so cringe worthy. It's a huge mess. It also contains suicidal actions, alcohol abuse, bipolar disorder, guns, death, drugs, emotional abuse, and just lots of triggers so if you're sensitive to things like this, please find a better fic to read that is suitable for you and or read at your own risk.
Note that I was 12 or 13 when I started writing this so please, give me a break. Also, SO MANY TYPOS, WYD SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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