The Love Only We Know

"I didn't agree on that terms Aya." she said firmly which left me confused

"What?" I simply utter, unable to construct a sentence from what she just said

"I didn't agree on being a friend with you, heck I don't even wanna be the one you see as sister" I furrowed my eyebrows at what she said, and I must admit I'm left between being hurt and a bit relieve, I don't know?

"But you did-"

"No, you did. You insisted on being a friend with me, and I just accepted it, it's either that or nothing at all. But I'm done with this. I don't wanna be just friend with you, I yearn for you, I'm down so fucking bad for you, Aya. And I don't really care if this ruined something between us, I'm gonna say what I wanted to say and not the word you wanted to hear." she said longingly and I just stood there frozen, and unable to move, unable to process it all at once
"I want you to let me in, so deep within your soul, I wanted to see more of you, more than the facade you're showing everyone. I'm down with whatever you can give, whatever you can offer, I'll take it in a heartbeat, but friendship?... A chance, just a slightest bit of chance is already enough for me to take the risk, I'm down on my knees for you, it's the only thing that can suffice me, and keep me from being sane, baby." she added which left me utterly dumbfounded

The confession was so deep, so intense, I've never heard anyone yearn for me so bad. It shocked me to my core that it left me steady, and unable to move. I didn't expect this kind of confession from her, much more this feeling that I'm feeling right now, I feel this sense of liveliness and confusion all at once.