Very Little Control
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Last published Tue, Nov 18, 2025
Self-control:
The ability to manage impulses, emotions, and behaviors to achieve long-term goals, often described as willpower.
I have never used as much self control before, so how can a man make me feel so pathetic. I have never been or felt like this before, i just feel so dumb.....
It all started when we meet, and no it wasn't by accident or because fate had written it that way, neither of us fallowed the stars or even our feelings to meet each other. Personally i think it was a joke, maybe by God, i just cant stop thinking it was unfair on my end. And of course i have no one to blame but myself, after all i was the one that decided to do what i did. I guess i thought i deserved better.
If i could go back in time...... I wouldn't change a thing, personally i had a good time and i wont spend time regretting things, but if someone can use my story as a lesson, keep reading i want to tell you what happened.
(Happy Ending)
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