Trying Not To Self-Destruct

Elizabeth Rollings swears she's fine.
Okay-she's not fine, but she looks fine, and in her world that's the same thing.

With dark brown hair she never brushes, grey eyes that judge everyone including herself, and a boho wardrobe that screams "free spirit" while hiding her emotional shrapnel, Izzy is chasing the only dream that's ever made her feel alive: acting. Unfortunately, Hollywood keeps tossing her the same backhanded compliment-"We're not looking for someone like you."

After another failed audition and a phone call from her mom dripping in toxic optimism, Izzy spirals straight into a diner booth, where she convinces herself she's absolutely going to get her life together before the day is over. (She won't.)

Her résumé is a graveyard of low-budget roles she pretends she's proud of. Her confidence is a pendulum swinging between main-character energy and total implosion. And when a smug date tries to tell her "acting is basically cheating," Izzy finally snaps, burns the whole evening down, and wakes up the next morning still furious... until an unexpected email drops into her inbox.

An opportunity.
A real one.
The kind that screams danger, disaster, and a shot she can't afford to blow.

Izzy doesn't know if she's ready.
She doesn't know if she's capable.
But she knows one thing:

She's tired of pretending.
She's tired of playing it safe.
And she is absolutely, one-hundred percent, trying not to self-destruct-even if it's the only thing she's ever been truly good at.

A messy, emotional, darkly funny story about ambition, self-sabotage, and a girl who keeps failing forward even when the world tells her she isn't the right fit.