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If I Lose Myself

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Catalina, a once loving girl. Is now a broken girl struggling to trust those around her again. From being beaten and raped by her step-father. She takes a leap of faith and runs away to her father's. Once there she realizes not only did she run away from a monster, she ran right into the world of Bikers since her dad is a trusted member within the club. Catalina has to learn to put her trust in herself before she puts it in someone else. 

But what happens when she meets the son of the club president? He is intrigued by her and wants to help her gain back her trust and maybe even the hopes of winning her over her heart.

Will she be able to trust again? 

Let alone give her heart to someone? 

Or is it just too late to save her from herself?

~EDITED TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITIES BUT I WILL DO A FULL EDIT SOMETIME IN THIS YEAR~

Copyright © 2016 by Violet RainAll Rights Reserved

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The Betrayal by laurawilson685244

cindy has been used and abused since she can remember. raised by her father after her mother left when she was just under one years old her life wasnt pretty especially since her father was big on dealing drugs and drinking to his hearts content everyday, her only support was mainly her best friend trey and her grandparents who helped raise her and make sure she had food in her stomach and clothes on her back Growing up she learnt the hard way with life and that she couldnt lean on anyone but herself to do what needed to be done that was until she stumble upon the hellhounds mc the prez alex saving her on a night out from being raped by someone who she thought she had already dealt with. this is where her life takes a whole three hundred and sixty degree turn and becomes nothing but chaos, cindy discovers her childhood best friend has been right under her nose the whole time all. she decides to help rob and alex find alex missing sister to say thank you for saving her but in that process she finds out the truth of her childhood past. what will she do when one night of passion turns into something more for her but not for alex. how will she cope with finding out the news every woman sometimes dreads to hear? will alex stand beside her through it all or turn his back on her? will she manage to save the ones she loves or watch them die before her eyes? please be aware there are things in this book which will and can be triggers for many people *mature content* *sexual content* *sexual abuse scenes* *mental and physical abuse* please read at your own risk over 18s first book

Mayhem (Hades Gate MC #1) by Aquamira

• Levi • I've wished for death too many times to count when I was a child. Too bad only my soul died, not my body. Now that i'm older, I refuse to give up.I want answers. Answers that my family can give me. A family that doesn't even know I exist. What the hell am I getting myself into? • Mayhem • I was born into this life. The club life. Violence, drugs, murder, woman, the brotherhood. It was always part of my life, minus the woman. I stay away from woman. I don't trust them, I hate them. I don't want them around me. But the little sister of my President apparently is an exception, since she won't get out of my fucking head. I'm obsessed. I hate her. I want her more than I hate her. I will get her, she will be mine. *This story contains violence, mature language, sexual content and dark themes* **I don't own any of the pictures used in this story; all right go to their rightful owners**

Alpha - Hell Rider's MC #2 - by BeWhoYouAre--

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Game Changer - Hell's Rejects MC Series Book 1 by CJLaurence

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My Bully's Older Brother by BettieBurton

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Saving Gracie | ✓ cover

The Betrayal cover

Mayhem (Hades Gate MC #1) cover

Alpha - Hell Rider's MC #2 - cover

MC Devil Dogs #3 Why Am I Not Loveable? cover

Game Changer - Hell's Rejects MC Series Book 1 cover

My Bully's Older Brother cover

Her Biker Baby Daddy cover

Wake Up Call cover

Saving Gracie | ✓

[ Highest Rank: #1 in Teen Fiction ] !! USED TO BE 'THE PLAYER STOPPED ME FROM JUMPING' !! !! NOW PUBLISHED ON AMAZON !! __________ Grace Parkinson doesn't know what it feels like to be happy. Living in a world where people aren't nice, where people aren't like the people in the movies, it makes her think that there is no such thing as happiness. Having no friends and not being able to talk to her mum about her problems since she has cancer doesn't even help her situation just a little bit at all. One day though, a certain player with blonde hair and blue eyes finds Grace leaning against the lockers, crying her problems away, and decides to help her. Since that day, you would expect things to go better but things don't get better, they get worse and when Grace finds herself about to jump off of the school building, thinking that the solution to her problems is death, the blonde player finds himself helping the lost girl again. The only question is: What will happen next?