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If I Lose Myself

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Catalina, a once loving girl. Is now a broken girl struggling to trust those around her again. From being beaten and raped by her step-father. She takes a leap of faith and runs away to her father's. Once there she realizes not only did she run away from a monster, she ran right into the world of Bikers since her dad is a trusted member within the club. Catalina has to learn to put her trust in herself before she puts it in someone else. 

But what happens when she meets the son of the club president? He is intrigued by her and wants to help her gain back her trust and maybe even the hopes of winning her over her heart.

Will she be able to trust again? 

Let alone give her heart to someone? 

Or is it just too late to save her from herself?

~EDITED TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITIES BUT I WILL DO A FULL EDIT SOMETIME IN THIS YEAR~

Copyright © 2016 by Violet RainAll Rights Reserved

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Saving Gracie | ✓ by XmysterysmileX

[ Highest Rank: #1 in Teen Fiction ] !! USED TO BE 'THE PLAYER STOPPED ME FROM JUMPING' !! !! NOW PUBLISHED ON AMAZON !! __________ Grace Parkinson doesn't know what it feels like to be happy. Living in a world where people aren't nice, where people aren't like the people in the movies, it makes her think that there is no such thing as happiness. Having no friends and not being able to talk to her mum about her problems since she has cancer doesn't even help her situation just a little bit at all. One day though, a certain player with blonde hair and blue eyes finds Grace leaning against the lockers, crying her problems away, and decides to help her. Since that day, you would expect things to go better but things don't get better, they get worse and when Grace finds herself about to jump off of the school building, thinking that the solution to her problems is death, the blonde player finds himself helping the lost girl again. The only question is: What will happen next?

Mayhem (Hades Gate MC #1) by Aquamira

• Levi • I've wished for death too many times to count when I was a child. Too bad only my soul died, not my body. Now that i'm older, I refuse to give up.I want answers. Answers that my family can give me. A family that doesn't even know I exist. What the hell am I getting myself into? • Mayhem • I was born into this life. The club life. Violence, drugs, murder, woman, the brotherhood. It was always part of my life, minus the woman. I stay away from woman. I don't trust them, I hate them. I don't want them around me. But the little sister of my President apparently is an exception, since she won't get out of my fucking head. I'm obsessed. I hate her. I want her more than I hate her. I will get her, she will be mine. *This story contains violence, mature language, sexual content and dark themes* **I don't own any of the pictures used in this story; all right go to their rightful owners**

My Pure Addiction✨ by leehawritex_

I rested my head on his shoulder, feeling a sense of peace envelop me. "I never knew love could feel like this," I murmured, my voice filled with contentment. "Me neither," he replied, his fingers gently playing with my hair. "But I wouldn't trade it for anything." --------------------------------------------------- Amelia Lockhart is a 24-year-old girl, kind-hearted yet broken, tormented by her abusive family. Punished for crimes she didn't commit, she carries the scars of her past deep within her. They say she's mute, but is she truly unable to speak? ------------------------------------------------- Tyler Harrington, a 27-year-old ruthless billionaire, is a handsome devil who cares for nothing beyond his empire and his brother. Feelings are a weakness to him-at least, that's what he believes. Is he as reckless as he appears, or can love pierce the walls he's built around his heart? ------------------------------------------------ What happens when a broken dreamer enters his life and they marry? Will he shatter her further, or will he fall hard for her, mending her broken soul with the power of his love? In a whirlwind of passion, secrets, and danger, their fates become intertwined in a tale where hope and despair collide, igniting a love that could either heal or destroy them both. **** Trigger Warnings: This book contains mentions of abuse, substance use, and assault, as well as references to murder. Reader discretion is advised, particularly for those uncomfortable with themes of emotional breakdown and related conflicts.

The Rise Of The Dragon (Creed Mc Book 3) by Life_Under_The_Stars

"She's the light to my darken nights. She's the moth to my flames. She's the Phoenix to my Dragon. Without her, I wouldn't be who I am. Without her, I'd be back to my wild ways." Dylan. --------- All seems to calm down at the Creed MC. It's been calm for quite some time. With old enemies long gone, new ones will merge. But what happens when the past comes terrorizing everyone around them. With family in harms way, will the love of the Phoenix and the Dragon survive? Will they be able to protect the ones they love? Will they be able to protect the twins? Or will they fail? If they fail, how will the MC stand tall with the twins gone? They probably won't. Here's the story of how The Dragon finally rises with the help of his Phoenix. Only time will tell how their story ends. ------- Book 3 of The Creed Mc series. Started: 5/26/23 New detailed description will come with time. Until then this is the best I can do. This follows immediately after Kai's story; so you'll need to read BOOK 1 Reaper's War first in order to understand this one. ❤️

The Betrayal by laurawilson685244

cindy has been used and abused since she can remember. raised by her father after her mother left when she was just under one years old her life wasnt pretty especially since her father was big on dealing drugs and drinking to his hearts content everyday, her only support was mainly her best friend trey and her grandparents who helped raise her and make sure she had food in her stomach and clothes on her back Growing up she learnt the hard way with life and that she couldnt lean on anyone but herself to do what needed to be done that was until she stumble upon the hellhounds mc the prez alex saving her on a night out from being raped by someone who she thought she had already dealt with. this is where her life takes a whole three hundred and sixty degree turn and becomes nothing but chaos, cindy discovers her childhood best friend has been right under her nose the whole time all. she decides to help rob and alex find alex missing sister to say thank you for saving her but in that process she finds out the truth of her childhood past. what will she do when one night of passion turns into something more for her but not for alex. how will she cope with finding out the news every woman sometimes dreads to hear? will alex stand beside her through it all or turn his back on her? will she manage to save the ones she loves or watch them die before her eyes? please be aware there are things in this book which will and can be triggers for many people *mature content* *sexual content* *sexual abuse scenes* *mental and physical abuse* please read at your own risk over 18s first book

I've got you by untitled_145

Carmen is stuck in an abusive relationship and can't seem to escape and is starting to lose all hope. Until one night she finds herself beaten and half unconscious in the middle of the road. That's when she meets Greyson. Greyson is an underground fighter, he's fucking ruthless but when it comes to her he's different. Since the second he saw her he knew she would be his and he would be hers. He would do anything for her, including protecting her from her psychotic ex-boyfriend. ________________________________________________________ I'm awful at these little description things but please give my story a chance.

Her Biker Baby Daddy by QueeenKisha

Being a foster kid, she couldn't wait to be able to leave the group home. Finally eighteen, and the help of her mentor at the group home, she was able to leave the clenched of the system and head towards the bright sun that shone over Los Angeles, California. Talias River starts her life in California, now Twenty-One years old getting a job and a place of her own. Making new friends and living a normal life, she couldn't be more happy. She is strong minded and does not let the fact that she grew up in foster care stop her from living the little life she has. But what happened when her friend drags her to a biker bar and she ends up having a one night stand with a biker man. But not just any biker man, the MC of the Devil Riders Biker Gang. Rider King is the MC to the biggest biker gang in LA. He runs the streets and his gang. Makes sure that his gang is a brotherhood, that trust, honor and loyalty run along every member and prospect. But what happens when he meets the beautiful raven hair and brow eye beauty and they have a night to remember. Now what happened when Talia finds out she got pregnant by the leader of a Motorcycle gang? How will Rider react? Will he turn her away? Follow the ups and down of Talias life after she meets, HER BIKER BABY DADDY❗️ ******************************** Amazing Cover By @_Kassie ❗️ She Does Amazing Covers❗️❣️❣️❣️

Reaper's War (Creed MC Book 1) by Life_Under_The_Stars

Have you ever been in love with your best friend? Well, I certainly have. I'm the girl from the wrong side of the tracks. The girl who is an illegitimate child. The girl who is a bastard child. In other words, my mom was a club bunny. The girl who could be anyone's child. When I was just a few months old, she left her old life and started a new one in a new town. My mother met an incredible man. A biker. He had his own son who was a little over a year old. We grew up like siblings. He was my father in my eyes. Events happened that made me leave town at 17. I never thought I would come back to this town after I left almost 6 years ago. But, here I am with my almost 5 year old daughter and son. I thought I could hide the truth. I thought he would never find out. But, hey! When you're in a small town, people talk. And so they did. My son is a spitting image of their father. So, when he came barging through my bar and walking out the back door towards my house. I couldn't hide it anymore. Our children were out in the yard playing for fuck's sake. "Is it true?" "Is what true?" "They're mine aren't they?" "I don't know what you're talking about." "He fucking looks like me McKenzie!" "I..." Tears began to fall from my eyes like the raining falling out the sky. There's no point in lying and trying to hide it anymore. "Were you ever going to tell me?" "No." He turned on his heels and stormed off towards his Harley FXDR 114. He never looked back. And I never blamed him. How could I? I destroyed the man I loved since we were children once again. I slumped to the ground in defeat. Tears falling freely down my face. I felt little hands wipe my tears on my stained cheeks. "It's okay mommy. I caught your raindrops." Started: 9/21/22 Finished: 12/1/22 Edited: 5/21/23-5/22/23

Wake Up Call by VictoriaAshleyAuthor

A broken girl... Twenty years old and I'd finally had enough. I couldn't take anymore, so I packed up my things and disappeared, leaving behind my drunken, abusive father and the mother that stood by and watched as I slowly died. I knew I was going, but not where I'd stop. The last thing I expected once on my own, was to be spending my nights stripping at a club in Florida, barely getting by. I should have known running from a past wouldn't make it stop haunting me, because misery will always find me and tear me down until there's nothing left of me. It always has... Things can always change though, right? Like looking up at a handsome, tattooed stranger, and with one stare he has me questioning everything I've ever believed in. I wasn't expecting or prepared for someone to storm into my life. Not him. Jace Montgomery. The name I'll never forget. The need to save me lies in his eyes, but I don't need a savior. Trust- what he wants to teach me. That I'm something more than what I've grown up believing and that I'm worth loving. Those are the things he wants me to believe. How am I supposed to let him in and show me I'm something when I've spent my entire life being... nothing? He won't give up, and honestly, I'm hoping he never does... Because maybe... just maybe... I am worth saving after all.

Inked Soul (Riders of Silence MC 3) by Booklives75

Tatt had always been living the same lifestyle: fuck, ink, fight for the club and face any trials that come his way. But after a scrape with law enforcement he finds himself having to work community service to escape going to jail, landing him right at a horse barn with a woman named Raven and her daughter Sienna. The only challenge this Rider of Silence doesn't know how to face is his new boss Raven, a woman with a dark and dead past that only leaves questions spinning through his head. Raven has lived a hard life, having a daughter at 16 and an abusive husband who ruled her life for too many years. With her horse barn, Raven has a new chance at a life for her daughter and her. Of course, it all is questioned when a sexy biker who doesn't understand privacy comes to work there make her question the difference between living and surviving. Raven had risked her heart once and it ended with a bang how could she again? We all have a past. The past is never dead, it lives in our memories. Sometimes it's trusting someone with a touch or for others it's trusting them with our heart. Our fears run us either into ice or into sabotaging our happiness. How does one learn to put aside their fear and just take the leap to live and love? Tatt's fear of abandonment and never being loved versus Raven's fear that love will end with a fist. But despite what Tatt and Raven fear, they can't run away from each other.

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Saving Gracie | ✓ cover

Mayhem (Hades Gate MC #1) cover

My Pure Addiction✨ cover

The Rise Of The Dragon (Creed Mc Book 3) cover

The Betrayal cover

I've got you cover

Her Biker Baby Daddy cover

Reaper's War (Creed MC Book 1) cover

Wake Up Call cover

Inked Soul (Riders of Silence MC 3) cover

Saving Gracie | ✓

[ Highest Rank: #1 in Teen Fiction ] !! USED TO BE 'THE PLAYER STOPPED ME FROM JUMPING' !! !! NOW PUBLISHED ON AMAZON !! __________ Grace Parkinson doesn't know what it feels like to be happy. Living in a world where people aren't nice, where people aren't like the people in the movies, it makes her think that there is no such thing as happiness. Having no friends and not being able to talk to her mum about her problems since she has cancer doesn't even help her situation just a little bit at all. One day though, a certain player with blonde hair and blue eyes finds Grace leaning against the lockers, crying her problems away, and decides to help her. Since that day, you would expect things to go better but things don't get better, they get worse and when Grace finds herself about to jump off of the school building, thinking that the solution to her problems is death, the blonde player finds himself helping the lost girl again. The only question is: What will happen next?