Let's Not... || Jikook

The world thinks I have everything figured out. They see the perfect stages, the rehearsed smiles, the easy chemistry between me and Jungkook. They don't see how my pulse stumbles every time he looks at me a little too closely or how I replay every small moment long after the lights go out. Somewhere along the way our friendship slipped into something quieter and heavier, something I was too afraid to name. When he finally reached for me with a truth I had spent months trying to swallow, I froze. I told him we should not cross that line, even though my heart had already crossed it a long time ago. Now I am left navigating the space between wanting him and fearing what wanting him could cost, wondering how long I can keep pretending I do not feel what I feel.