broken. [c.h.]

I've been so broken inside, you know the feeling when you want to end it all? it's almost always there. You know the twist in your stomach when you desperately want to sob? always there. I struggle daily to keep myself together, I really do not want to relapse. I dread therapy, I only tell people that I have known forever what is hurting me. Until this one guy, a friend of my brother's, I have only known of for four years & he's never really spoke to me... speaks to me. Did I forget to mention my brother is Ashton Irwin?