FUCK THAT BOY

This book isn't about love in a cute way.

It's about that kind of love that feels good as fuck at first - the kind that makes you smile for no reason, check your phone every two seconds, and believe life is finally going right. The kind of love that makes you feel chosen, wanted, and safe... until it doesn't.

FUCK THAT BOY is about my first love. About meeting him on a regular summer day that wasn't supposed to mean shit, and somehow letting that turn into everything. It's about how he made me feel like I was the only girl in the world while his world had more than one. It's about how the good times were really good and the bad times were really fucking bad.

This is a story about ignoring red flags because you're in love. About apologizing when you didn't do anything wrong. About being told you're "tripping" until you start believing it. About loving someone so hard that you forget to love yourself at all.

It's about the jokes that weren't funny.
The lies that came out too late.
The truth I found out on our anniversary.

It's about missing someone who hurt you. About still loving him even when you know you shouldn't. About being scared you'll miss him forever because he was your first everything.

This book isn't polished. It's messy. It's emotional. It's honest. It's the shit I wish I said out loud instead of holding in. It's proof that love can break you and still teach you something at the same time.

I'm not writing this because I hate him.

I'm writing this because I love him.

And because sometimes the only way to move on is to finally say it all.