How to Feel
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MatureComplete Wed, Mar 18, 20266h 11m
At Brown University, everyone is trying to become someone new.
Mason Bowers just wants to breathe.
After a lifetime of walking on eggshells, college feels like freedom that is, until a closeted basketball star pulls him into a relationship built on secrecy and fear. Liam makes Mason feel seen... but only when no one else is watching.
Nicholas Sinclair knows what it's like to lose someone. Grieving his mother, he finds comfort in football, photography, and paying attention to the quiet moments most people miss.
Their lives collide in a story about queer love, grief, masculinity, and the cost of hiding who you are.
Because not all love stories are soft. Some are lessons.
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