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Broken Hope (Phanfiction)

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So close to breaking. She's so close. . She can't escape her thoughts. She only has her older brother left, the only thing that gives her hope. How much longer can she take it? Then it happens. That night. Everything is messed up. Everything. Will she give it all up? Or will someone save her just in time? What happenes when she ends up adopted by the one and only Dan and Phil?
        **TRIGGER WARNING** 
   Contains eating disorders, self harm, suicide attempts, suicidal thoughts, depression, substance abuse, strong language, boyXboy, and much fluff.
Please do not read if you may be triggered by these things. Also, if you need someone to talk to just private message me anytime :)All Rights Reserved

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Depression//Phan by bluetroyee

(tw: s*lf-h*rm, mentions of s*lf-h*rm, d*pr*ss*d scenes. May be triggering for some. Read at your own limit, please!) Phil Lester, a boy who's falling into depression slowly. And soon, his depression may end up falling to deep. He gets hateful and rude comments on his videos that he posts to YouTube. He even gets hate on Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr. What did he ever do to them? What did he do to deserve any of this?? His flatmate Dan doesn't know about Phil's depression, however. All he knows (thinks, rather) is that his best friend is staying strong through all of the hateful things he gets from people. But in reality, that's not what Phil is doing at all. He's not staying strong through the hate. He's just faking the smile for Dan so he wouldn't get so worried about him. Sure, Dan might be able to crack some real smiles out of him once in a while, but not every time. He also wears long sleeves and thick bracelets to hide the scars of his pain. He acts like his normal quirky, adorable, funny, weird self when making YouTube videos, when around his friends and family, when having a meet-up with fans (or just being around them in general), when out in public, etc. Phil hadn't told anyone at all about his depression. And he probably wouldn't anytime soon, either. His fans didn't know, his friends didn't know, his family didn't know, Dan didn't know... nobody knew. But one day, would people push him over his limit? Would Dan be able to save him in time? © 2016 by bluetroyee. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

Foster Care//Phan [Complete] by GillyLozer

Dan Howell and his little brother Adrian have been through a lot, one day the Lester family decides to foster the boys. Phil is extremely happy to be a foster brother but what happens when Dan and Phil gain feelings for each other? Will Dan's depression get in the way of that? Or will Phil be Dan's saviour? A/N Okay! Thank you to anyone who reads this! Also please leave comments if you can, I get writer's block a lot and like don't update for long periods of time! So comments with suggestions are nice! :) ALSO!! Some things in this story can be triggering so plz don't read if it would trigger you! And there may or may not be smut in this XD Thanks for reading! Please enjoy! <3

help me //phan by drownnme

When Phil, one of the nicest guys at school, starts falling down the hole of depression and getting bullied, he meets Dan, the popular fuck-boy of the school. Dan soon finds some of the dark, and kinda scary things Phil has been doing and tries to help Phil, before it's too late. ((Warning: Depression, Cutting, Suicidal Thoughts/Attempts, Eating Disorders, and Bullying)) I made this like a year ago this is so cringey but thanks for reading it! -/- cover by @blurrywhisperer -/-

Can't Be Saved - Adopted by Dan and Phil by EliseUnique73

(Okay, I know that this has been writing so many times over, but this is my version.) Addi is 14, an orphan and her only role models are Dan and Phil. She has a habit of self-harming. And a voice that makes her do things she doesn't want to do. Then she is adopted by her role models, and her life seems perfect, she's even made some friends. But it all turns dark when her friends have dark secrets of their own and Addi's voice returns. Can she get through this, or is it all coming to a drastic end? (This story will contain some harsher language and self-harm. You have been warned!) I also just want to say that this is the first story I ever completed and at the time it was hard and I was proud of my efforts, but now I hate it and cringe just thinking about it. I hadn't had a plan when writing and just went as I wished to. I won't unpublished this as a basic point to see how far I've come when writing other works, but this isn't something I've continued to be proud of. Get it a shot or don't, it's up to you because I wouldn't say this is awful and you should never read it, but there are better stories out there. Whatever, rant over xx

Moving ~ PHAN by krysiice

When Dan start school in a new place, he and Phil become friends fast. But what happens when things become to much? What happens when the only relief seems to be in harming? What happens when they start catching feelings for one another? But what happens when what Dan's been forced to do his whole life, emerges again, threatening to possibly separate them forever, especially when they need the other the most? *Contains: -fluff, smut -descriptive issues such as: self harm, abuse, suicidal thoughts PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED BY THESE THINGS stay safe *hugs*

The Lion and the Llama (Phanfiction) by danosaurxx

*TRIGGER WARNING* Dan and Phil start having feelings for each other, but after one of Dan's nightmares causing him wanting Phil to sleep with him the rest of the night, things start spiraling out of control. (Phan, self harm, swearing etc etc etc) Ok, I'm terrible at descriptions, but if you wanna know what actually happens read on :))) -A xx

Misunderstood [Phan] (COMPLETED) by JoeyLover16

Dan was 16 and depressed, no one really knew him all that well, he had trust issues and preferred to keep his feelings hidden. Phil was 18 and sweet, everybody knew him and liked him, he was kind of stuck up but he had a good heart • • • Dan was born in London but when his mum met a man, they got married and moved to New York together. But then Dans parents got divorced after his mum figured out that he was abusing Dan. Dans mum decided to move back to London because New York reminded them of bad memories • • • [I wanted to make their ages closer so I made them have a two year difference rather than a five year difference] [TRIGGER WARNING] INCLUDES SELF-HARM, DEPRESSION, SUICIDE AND SCHIZOPHRENIA RELATED THEMES ; Copyright © 2017

Save Me From Myself » Daniel Howell AU by TheMeganHowell

[Trigger warning: Suicide, self-harm, eating disorders, and depression is mentioned many times in this story. Do not read if those things could trigger you.] Sadness and sorrow, you wouldn't expect those words to sum up the sister of Phil Lester, but they did.. She just feels like nothing. She needs someone to save her from herself. ©TheMeganHowell 2014 [Ahead of time, I would like to say that this was my first book after my long break from writing and me reading this is like Dan watching his first video. So much cringe. So it sucks. Stay away. Thanks.]

psychedelia | phan by thenightlockfox

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

Too Close (Phan) by WellThisIsAwkward49

Phil Lester is a well known youtuber. He hides behind the camera, he acts the way that he wants to but he scared to be himself at school. He's popular and he's not happy like that. Dan is sweet and rarely talks. He is always afraid that somebody will hurt him so he tries to stay away from people and emotions. Dan struggles with depression, selfharm, bullies, anorexia, a dark past, and being fostered by an abusive family. His mom and dad died when he was 13 and he blames himself everyday. His 7 year old sister is the only thing keeping him alive and sane. Phil feels bad for Dan, but he can't show it unless he wants to get hurt to. Little does Phil know, Dan is quickly losing control of his life. Read this book to go on this adventure with Dan and Phil. (Will mostly be written in Dan's POV) WARNINGS: This story will have very triggering content that deals with self harm, depression, self hatred, anorexia, abuse, harsh language, bullying, mentions of rape, bulimia, and anxiety. Please be careful reading my book and I am always here to talk if you need it. Also, Dan is shorter in this book, about 5'9" cause I have a thing with height.

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Depression//Phan

(tw: slf-hrm, mentions of slf-hrm, dprss*d scenes. May be triggering for some. Read at your own limit, please!) Phil Lester, a boy who's falling into depression slowly. And soon, his depression may end up falling to deep. He gets hateful and rude comments on his videos that he posts to YouTube. He even gets hate on Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr. What did he ever do to them? What did he do to deserve any of this?? His flatmate Dan doesn't know about Phil's depression, however. All he knows (thinks, rather) is that his best friend is staying strong through all of the hateful things he gets from people. But in reality, that's not what Phil is doing at all. He's not staying strong through the hate. He's just faking the smile for Dan so he wouldn't get so worried about him. Sure, Dan might be able to crack some real smiles out of him once in a while, but not every time. He also wears long sleeves and thick bracelets to hide the scars of his pain. He acts like his normal quirky, adorable, funny, weird self when making YouTube videos, when around his friends and family, when having a meet-up with fans (or just being around them in general), when out in public, etc. Phil hadn't told anyone at all about his depression. And he probably wouldn't anytime soon, either. His fans didn't know, his friends didn't know, his family didn't know, Dan didn't know... nobody knew. But one day, would people push him over his limit? Would Dan be able to save him in time? © 2016 by bluetroyee. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.