What you want....what actually happens

When you desire something so deeply that it feels like it's already yours... losing it hurts twice as much.
This is not a love story.
This is a story about expectation, the kind you swear you won't have, yet carry anyway.
About collecting moments you know will never last.
About choosing memories even when you're aware they'll leave scars.
The problem was never him.
It was me.
I believed in the attachment he showed.
The love he showed.
The care he showed.
And that's all it ever was...shown.
In a world where feelings are performed and promises are borrowed, I mistook gestures for truth. I held onto illusions with both hands, knowing they would slip through my fingers, and still refusing to let go.
For those who stay, even when staying hurts.
For those who understand that some desires don't fade, they just learn how to ache quietly.
Because wanting something that was never meant to stay...
is a pain you carry long after it's gone.