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I cant keep pretending

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Reads 505
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Parts 17
Time 1h 3m

drama emo humor lemon love otp sadlife survival young

She cant keep this up. She has sadness stacked up inside of her. She has to hide it... until she can't anymore. She doesn't stop hearing names and insults towards her. She can't help the self-harm. She has a name. Ella Diane. 

Caused by the bullying and home violence, she tries to leave this world in search of a better one. Does she find it? Read the whole story to know.All Rights Reserved

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Bad Boy's Game

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