Not So Perfect
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"She wanted to die, and I didn't see it."
All this time I'd spent with her. I knew she was hurting, but I didn't see how much.
How deep the darkness went.
She's dying right now.
And it's my fault.
******
After a public breakdown and a year-long battle with writer's block and depression, bestselling author Aelin Graves has run out of words-and out of excuses.
Her publisher gives her one last chance: finish her next book in four months, or lose her career for good.
Desperate to find the spark she once had, Aelin starts spending her days in a quiet coffee shop, hoping inspiration might find her again.
Instead, she meets Sebby Hawk - the guarded owner who seems just as determined to outrun his past as she is. He built his coffee shops to escape the life expected of him. She came looking for a story.
Neither of them planned on becoming part of one.
But when you're already falling apart, love can feel just as terrifying as losing everything.
Content Warning: This story contains sexual themes, strong langage and mental health struggles, like depression and suicidal thoughts and actions. This is a romance with HEA, but there will be a ton of hurt beforehand. Reader discretion is advised.
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