Brainwashed
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Last published Thu, Jun 4, 2020
Just random shit I went through and at times, none of which are relevant in any way today. I've posted these a long time ago and since removed them, but decided they need to be shared. I'm allowed to have felt the way I have felt in the past. These experiences are part of who I am. None of which I had barely turned 18 at the time so the writing isn't as great. But I am proud to have come as far as I have.
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