Satan is laughing and God is watching.

WARNING: STORY DEPICTS GRAPHIC MENTIONS OF VIOLENCE, NIHILISM AND SELF H*RM. I DO NOT ENCOURAGE THIS KIND OF BEHAVIOR. IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE ABOUT ANY OF THESE TOPICS THEN I ADVISE YOU TO NOT READ THE STORY.

You throw a big party. It's going to be your last. In the middle of it you go into the bathroom and take a hot bath. You drink some wine and throw in some pain meds. You take a sharp knife and try to end everything.