Fabian Nichole, 14, just moved to Abington, Nebraska, due to circumstances caused by her brother, Ashton. Fabian hates always having to give up everything she's grown attached to, because of her brother's foolish mistakes. Her dad being the drunken abusive man he is, never cares about anything that could be right for his children, the only thing he can ever think of is how to afford more alcohol and to protect his ego. Fabian doesn't like her long distance relationship with her girlfriend, Drewsyla, who still lives in Jacksonville. Things get worse for her when she meets the school's troublemaker, Nyxson, and starts falling for him, next thing she knew she was laying on the pavement.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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