Where's my Saviour

Hi my names Alice Jade Walker. My older brother is a semi famous band member his name is Ash Walker. I'm his little sister. You're probably thinking I have an easy life with a sort of famous brother.Have something to look up to. Right? To be honest my life sucks. My parents yell at me a lot. I get bullied at school and I miss my big brother. He used to protect me and help me. But he's gone he got away with his band and left me. My life always has sucked I have a weird anxiety disorder that can cause me to have random attacks of hyperventalation, depression, passing out, etc. I have a special trained dog that somehow senses these attacks and is supposed to help me. I don't know when the attacks started my doctor says I went through trauma of some sort and I forgot the first 11 years of my life. Honestly I'm confused at why this happened to me. I never did any wrong in my life. I'm a normal girl who is in a band listens to punk rock screamo rock n roll heavy metal. I'm normal. Right?