Until our last breath

Nico has come to accept that his life is different than others'. He knows he will die young, not even sure if he is gonna make it to become an adult or not. In other words he's slowly drowning and one day he won't be able to come up for air. In other words he made a stupid deal to live for just a month more and is already regretting it not even five minutes after. In other words he's a coward. In other words he's afraid to die.

But how can you be afraid to die when it's the one thing that will bring your loved ones some closure?

Matteo just woke up and let's just say that last night's events were outside his control even when he had been doing so good for so long. Diagnosed with depression was not something he was ready to hear and not something that he's ready to accept yet, but knowing that things had already taken a turn for the darkest, he knows that the chemical state of his brain isn't as it should and now he can't protect those he loves. Things are hard and scary and living a life where he has always been the protector and never the protected he finds himself vulnerable at the mercy of his illness.

Can the two boys stand for each other when their meeting is the sole good thing that has happened to them or will they draw their last breaths sooner than what should've been?

So... big TWs here, look at the author note for specifics.