I'm Esther Clark, the ugliest in a crowd, and definitely not the sharpest knife in the drawer, but I'm the richest in our school. I'm not dumb, I could see from my own reflection that I don't deserve love, but somehow I get it. Not with my looks since I don't have any, but from the money in my bank account. Yes, Esther Clark pays boys to be in a relationship with me, but no one knows. Until, I saw Blake Johnson, he was the hottest out of a crowd, sharpest knife in the drawer, but they say opposites attract right? I ignored till that moment he said he wants to be my boyfriend for money, that's when I knew there was no chance he would be called mines. But, as we faked a whole relationship, I began to gain interest in him. Just as I was about to ask him, he was there. Kissing Kathy, and not me, well I guess this is Just My Dream.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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