' the death and rewind'

After Johnnys and dallys death, ponyboy changed. He grew up well. Of course he did. got into a good college. Helped Darry and soda. But he lived in guilt. If he never ran into the church johnny wouldn't have died. And dally would have went crazy and.. got shot. He felt guilt everyday. And couldn't handle it anymore. A gun to his head, he did it. He ended it. A loud bam. Then. He opened his eyes? But not his house from before. But the old house. Where all him and his brothers lived. !? '