Insecurities
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Last published Thu, Nov 5, 2015
I've always had a problem with my weight and losing it. The problem wasn't so much as losing it but dealing with the person I am on the inside and out. I'm afraid of the judgement afraid of love afraid that no one would want me for the person inside.
They only focus on the person on the outside and never give me a chance to prove my worth. The most important fear that I have is that no one will accept me. Because of my weight no one will love and cherish my body like I'd longed for.
I'd hate to speak bad upon myself but it's just something that I can't control. I want to be worth something to someone so important that they can't act straight and love me unconditionally no matter my flaws. Sometimes I feel as though I never deserved the life I have been given. The life that was wasted upon by me an existence that wasn't worth the pain. I hope whoever sees this will know the pain that I feel Inside crying for help for a need to be loved.
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