The Cursed

I was a good daughter.

I took care of everyone around me.

It was always them before me.

As the eldest daughter, I kept choosing what was best for everyone else, even when it meant setting myself aside.

I know, deep in my heart, that I did my best. I loved sincerely. I gave without asking for much in return.

So why?

Why does it feel like the universe is always working against me?

Why is it that every time I hope for something good, life hands me the exact opposite?

The words I long to hear never come.
The moments I pray for never happen.
The endings I dream of always seem to belong to someone else.

I'm so tired of watching disappointment find me first.

Sometimes I wonder if doing the right thing was ever enough, because no matter how much good I try to put into the world, it always feels like I'm the one left carrying the weight of everything.

Will it ever get better for me?

If I choose myself this time, will anything be different?

Will I finally stop feeling guilty for putting my own heart first?

I've spent so much of my life making sure everyone else was okay, hoping that maybe one day life would meet me with the same kindness I've given.

But it never did.

So now I'm left wondering...

What if I stop carrying everyone else's burdens?

What if I finally choose me?

Will I finally find the happiness I've been waiting for?

Or will life still find another way to break my heart?

I don't want a perfect life.

I just want one moment where things go right for me.

One moment where I don't have to wonder why it's always me.

One moment where I can finally believe that maybe... my turn has come.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Mga matahum nga tinugaaaa~~~ (beautiful creature)

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