Loving Lilac (EDITING)

I looked down, willing myself to gain the courage to jump. The rain was pelting my skin, the wind blowing my hair around. Tears splashed my cheeks, mixing in with the rain. I was a complete and utter mess.
"Don't Lilac! I realized that I'm wrong and that you don't have to do this!" Nicholas shouted from behind me.
I gave a ruthless laugh. "I was already gone, Nicholas. Nobody even realized it."
And with that I fell.