to my exes

in this 'story' i will write all the letters i want to send to the exes that i've loved much and had a pretty serious relationship with. I must clarify, i started this because i went through a breakup at 11pm and felt the urge to write my feelings down. even though i will never send these letters to them, i still want to share them with other people, to let them know a break up is normal. Also; ignore the typos and wrong spelling, english isn't my first language. also for privacy reasons, i will not give their names. it will be replaced with h/n (how original). this will also not be uploaded soon ,because i barely ever get into a relationship, this is the first one in... 5 years? maybe 4??? it is for teenagers and adults and might contain explicit or sad, but i won't change the rating, because else some peopl might not see it, even though they might need to see it. i'm sorry for this long description and feel free to cry and vent in the comments. also don't freak out at the parragraphs(?)