IF I STAY

I think about that sentence every day. What happens if I stay? Will I eventually fade away? Will I be an empty shell full of pain pushing along day by miserable day. Pushing the people I love away or will I explode and destroy my world? Will I burn down the city, the walls I built around me? Is this what happens if I stay? What if I don't stay I just push everyone away and finally finish it all.... no I must stay. If not for me then for the ones I would leave behind....the ones who need me. Need me that's a funny thought. I will have to find a way to save myself, to smile on...to fight away the darkness and demon I hide away deep inside. This is what I must do.....
IF I STAY....