I can't

I can't even put a smile on my face and say I'm ok I can't I just can't do that at all.Everywhere I go I can't stop thinking about how I'm not going to see you,talk to you,laugh with you,smile with you,and most all be with you.I mean people have tried and tried but they just can't fix what's already been broken.I can't lose you anymore...I just can't...I try my best to stay strong but the pain makes it so hard to be strong.Its like we are leaving each other again and again and again and I can't do that anymore.I have to be with you and only you and have you for my whole life but I know that's not going to be possible.I just don't know how I'm supposed to feel or how I'm supposed to act.I just can't;(