Letters I'll never send

In this place, I will write everything my heart has urged me to say someday, yet I have refused to set it free, holding my tongue back from giving those feelings a voice...
Here, I will write what I never said...
Here, I will write what I desperately wanted to say, but could not...
I will write... as an apology to my heart...
the heart I have burdened with carrying all those words for all these years...
I will write... because I could not speak.

So,
Address the letters to the holes in my butterfly wings,
Nothing's forever, Nothing's as good as it seems...
And when the clouds won't iron out ,
And the monsters creep into your house ,
And every door is hard to close...