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I Was Drowning

slayworthydudes

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Parts 7
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Reads 154
Votes 22
Parts 7
Time 47m

slayworthydudes

Mature

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Although Dan doesn't look the part, with his pastel sweaters and flower crowns, he's one of the most depressed people out there. All because of three things: he's gay, his dad abuses him because of it, and his best friend, Phil, decided to leave when Dan needed him most.

Phil is a ray of sunshine, but he doesn't exactly understand why Dan is so depressed. It's just a phase right? The cutting, not eating, being "depressed," all a phase. Besides, what cute, pastel-wearing, boy is depressed? 

WARNINGS: ABUSE, SELF HARM, ANOREXIA, HOMOPHOBIC SLURSAll Rights Reserved

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$Depressed | Phan {EDITING} by mi_cro_wave$

"Phil... I'm depressed" "Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-" "No. Phil. I have depression" "Oh." ~ triggers: -self harm (cutting) -depression + depressing thoughts -suicidal thoughts + suicide -gay slurs + other derogatory words -abuse -alcohol addiction -rape -murder ~ #144 in Fanfiction ~ completed - 25/9/16

10:05 ~ Phan Highschool AU by sixxdaysofmylife

Phil is bullied by everyone, or so he thinks. Other fandoms in this fan fiction: fall out boy, muse... trigger warnings: depression, suicidal thoughts/ actions, self harm, bulimia, anorexia

Life Is Precious, Just Like Him - Phil Lester X Depressed! Reader by noathenerd

You met Dan in College and became close friends, even dropped out at the same time as him because of overwhelming stress, and your Depression and Anxiety. Your parents won't take you back in because they're abusive and always have been, so you have no where to go. That is until Dan saves you and takes you in. At his place you met Phil and instantly there's something about him that makes you fall in love. Phil and you bond immediately and he promises to help you through your depression and other problems, no matter how hard it may be.

The Unknown. Phan AU by AllTimePhan73

Dan hated his life and that wasn't even an understatement. Each day he wished he had never woken up as he was tormented by those who were meant to love him. Just because they were meant to love him doesn't mean they did. He was suffering and was so close to giving up. Then he met Phil. Phil changed everything. TW: Abuse (both physical and emotional), depression, self harm, kind of a suicide attempt although the person doesn't get very far with it, Dan's kind of mute COVER CREDIT TO @DOODLE5SOS

Hopeless (Dan Howell X Reader) by scocophilia

"I'm sorry," he began, stepping forward "I couldn't say this over the phone. I couldn't. I just... I was so happy!" Your face fell, you were sitting here, dreading everything you had ever done, and he was happy. "When you told me, my heart stopped, I - I couldn't speak... I love you (Name.) and I couldn't tell you that, without wanting to touch you, to hold you, to make you mine, and just... just look at you." He sighed, his cheeks beet red, your own matching him style. TRIGGER WARNING TRIGGER WARNING PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED, WILL HATE, OR ARE SENSTIVE TO TOPICS INVOLVING DEPRESSION/ANXIETY #2 Dan #10 YOUTUBE

A Smile Can Hide Anything by dilhowelter07

When you say you're okay, you're saying it but... your eyes are saying something else. *TRIGGER WARNING* Finished July 18th, 2018

depressed boy ☹ phan {texting} [COMPLETED] by ewcathyy

plantguylester: aye. it's me 'amazingphil' from tumblr. how's it going? read at 7:20 p.m. *lowercase intended* •Trigger Warning• [COMPLETED ON AUGUST 10, 2016]

struggling➾ phan (complete) by -aesthetichowell-

update:: this was written about two years ago, the writing is quite bad, I apologize in advance //trigger warning// //dans pov// "do you love me phil ?" "maybe i do"

Illicit (phan) by -phantasizing-

"I'm straight!" "The only straight you are is a straight up liar." {or the one featuring punk!phil and pastel!dan} STARTED - 07/02/17 COMPLETED - 29/10/17

Hello Internet ✹ Phan by klutzyvegetarian7

[Complete] Phil was his first best friend in the eighteen years of his life. When Phil first started YouTube, his best friend died, and he hadn't met Dan yet. When they did meet, everything changed. - How conceited does one have to be to show no tolerance for the people they care about? - This story is strictly in the perspective of Dan Howell. MATURE CONTENT: NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER DEMOGRAPHIC. POSSIBLY TRIGGERING. Contains: Self harm, abuse, attempted suicide, and sex. Strong language is used.

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Depressed | Phan {EDITING}

"Phil... I'm depressed" "Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-" "No. Phil. I have depression" "Oh." ~ triggers: -self harm (cutting) -depression + depressing thoughts -suicidal thoughts + suicide -gay slurs + other derogatory words -abuse -alcohol addiction -rape -murder ~ #144 in Fanfiction ~ completed - 25/9/16