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Hi there!
I don't really know how to start this so I guess I'll just jump in...
I have a hard time expressing myself vocally but I have found that it's easier to write how I feel down.
This collection that I'm sharing with you guys a series of writings that I've been working on since about August of 2014.
They've been inspired by my life, stories that I've read on this site, my surroundings and the words that I was never able to say out loud.
To be honest, I'm scared of sharing this because I don't know how people are going to respond. The feedback worries me but I won't ever know what others think or be able to get better if I keep it to myself.
Anyways, thank you for reading this and thank you for your feedback.
Love,
Jocey
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"I don't know, Gracie. That's the point. I don't know why I'm willing to feel how much you broke my f*cking heart every minute we're together just so I can be with you. It's not logical. But I am. I would sit through a hundred of these horrible drives just to be with you." .................. Once a heart has been broken, can it ever really heal? G + E = Forever But then Gracie Allen had her heart crushed and Ethan Bennett had his shattered. G + E = Forever For Never After one fluke letter being published in a magazine about said heartbreak, coincidentally the heartbreaker himself comes back. But is it a mere coincidence? Could it be fates way of telling Gracie that, maybe, not all heartbreaks are permanent. And maybe love, however wrong it feels to your brain, isn't logical. It's chemical. With words left unsaid, secrets untold, and a popular weekly column of anonymous crap advice written by a hypocrite, can one university student rise to the challenge that Ethan holds, or will she fall away into dust from all that used to be? It might take one hell of a bridge to build, but when love is waiting on the other side, maybe it's worth it to try. .................. Okay, so a few words before you get into this. I DON'T have anything planned out. It's kinda just coming to me as I write. I have no idea what's going to happen. All I know is that I was in a lovey-dovey mood and wanted to write gushyness and awesomeness. So here is my attempt at that. AGAIN THIS IS NOT PLANNED AND SOME SHIT MIGHT HAVE NO REASON BEING IN IT BY THE TIME ITS FINISHED. But I hope you enjoy it! Started March 14th, 2016! Finished March 21st, 2016! (A FREAKING WEEK. WHAT.)Complete
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"I don't know, Gracie. That's the point. I don't know why I'm willing to feel how much you broke my f*cking heart every minute we're together just so I can be with you. It's not logical. But I am. I would sit through a hundred of these horrible drives just to be with you." .................. Once a heart has been broken, can it ever really heal? G + E = Forever But then Gracie Allen had her heart crushed and Ethan Bennett had his shattered. G + E = Forever For Never After one fluke letter being published in a magazine about said heartbreak, coincidentally the heartbreaker himself comes back. But is it a mere coincidence? Could it be fates way of telling Gracie that, maybe, not all heartbreaks are permanent. And maybe love, however wrong it feels to your brain, isn't logical. It's chemical. With words left unsaid, secrets untold, and a popular weekly column of anonymous crap advice written by a hypocrite, can one university student rise to the challenge that Ethan holds, or will she fall away into dust from all that used to be? It might take one hell of a bridge to build, but when love is waiting on the other side, maybe it's worth it to try. .................. Okay, so a few words before you get into this. I DON'T have anything planned out. It's kinda just coming to me as I write. I have no idea what's going to happen. All I know is that I was in a lovey-dovey mood and wanted to write gushyness and awesomeness. So here is my attempt at that. AGAIN THIS IS NOT PLANNED AND SOME SHIT MIGHT HAVE NO REASON BEING IN IT BY THE TIME ITS FINISHED. But I hope you enjoy it! Started March 14th, 2016! Finished March 21st, 2016! (A FREAKING WEEK. WHAT.)
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