Addict // d.h.
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Last published Tue, Aug 11, 2015
"Phil, everyone is addicted to something. Now you can choose something that'll rip you down and tear you apart from the inside out, or you can choose something that lets you feel amazing. You can choose something that puts you on top of the world. That's what this stuff does, that's why I do it. So, Phil, what do you choose?" I asked the blue eyed boy.
He stared at me.
"I'm addicted to you."
// tw // has self harm & depression. deals with drugs, alcohol, anxiety.
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