How to make a handsome

How would my life different if i were handsome man,if I don't have zips or black marks in my face or extra hair in my body
If I were thinner all conception of my self, and the ideas I got from my family especially my mother.
Who we see our selves, yes into our parents eyes if your parents tell you are beauty and thin you'll see your self as they described you. I heard a sentence in video once. Said you could change your cloth you'll had hair cut, you'll change your address , you'll body. But you'll do the same wrongs you'll have same actions you got bullied in the same case. Cause you didn't change your mentality
And that is life as we know it hard and rough
But I'm trying to change and authoring this book one of my sings of changing.