Insiders
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This is a first hand ride into my mind, hence the title. So hop inside, shut the door and enjoy the ride.
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This is my first time doing anything like this so please bare with me.
Also I'm dyslexic so might have a few spelling mistakes
Please comment and let me know what you think, thank you.
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