Barely breathing
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Last published Wed, Jun 10, 2015
My name. It just isn't important. My life. That's a long story. Who am I you ask..? I'm that girl. The girl that stands in the outcast. The fat girl that doesn't participate in gym class. The ugly girl that everyone ignores. My life is anything but a dream one true. So one day I attempt to end it all. To leave this earth and try to find my safe haven. My mom found me tied to my ceiling with the rope across my throat and my face purple. I go to the hospital and it just goes from there. One mistake can change everything.
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